The activity on this blog is an indication of how I’m feeling in the last two months or so: Uninspired.
Yesterday’s post was the first one I had written since before Hurricane Sandy at the end of October, and the same has been happening with my creative life in general. I’m not writing much if at all, whether it’s on this blog or elsewhere. I started a post-Sandy piece on how social media worked for us, but I haven’t been able to get back to it. I’m not taking many photos if at all lately. I’m not even debating much about journalism and social media, though I am determined to read Post Industrial Journalism: Adapting to the Present. I haven’t even been reading that much lately.
I was busy in the wake of Sandy, but I also just don’t feel like I have the energy or inspiration to dive into my creative projects now that things have calmed down.
I can point to my depression problems as one of the reasons. But my creative projects whether it’s photography, writing on a blog or scribbling in a journal has been one of my coping mechanisms.
And it’s not like I don’t have ideas. I’ve had a story idea brewing in my mind for a few weeks, but I’ve just never gotten to the point of putting the words on the page. I haven’t had a driving desire to sit down and write them down. I’ve shot photos, but I have yet to edit them. Editing them leads to sharing them, which is the fulfilling part of shooting photos.
I’ve had times in my life where I’ve felt uninspired, but it’s usually in one area and not all of my creative life. I was writing a story yesterday at work and struggled to write a creative lede. I wrote something straight forward, which is a bit more unusual for me. Lede writing can be a joy and I’ve rarely had that problem.
So where do I go from here? I have to find my inner inspiration (hey, I can’t sit around waiting for it to strike, right?), but it can be a hard task when you’ve lost something like that.
I’d love to hear stories from people who have gone through this struggle. Or maybe you have suggestions? Either way, leave them in the comments section or send me a tweet at @jenconnic.